compared myself to them
for forever
i am trying to stop cuz
i will never
be them
i will be me
instead
i like that better
the freak i wanna see is playing in my headphones back at me
i'm on my way, embrace the climb, move swift when it is time
opened eyes i seize it , put it on digital then i freaked it
i’m not aloof and mysterious, i post too much on twitter bitch
on life kicks shit, get got get it
on life kicks shit, how i exist
sublimate negative into positive
on some third eye blind shit, also my prerogative
throw it down like i’m dying cause i know that’s coming soon
so until then i will play my silly tunes
keep it true dweller my man, the og plan
was always just go as hard as fuck with whatevers on hand
imac moment
i wont romanticize homelessness
i’m not built like that, tho i want it bad
besides it won't work anyway where i was living at
all have our paths, take unique trajectory
wear influences on my sleeve discrete identity
separate, and same i am somehow all three and none
i do not proclaim, just happened to have noticed some
similarities, accidental resonance
treat the source material with utmost reverence
nostalgia, is a fucking poison, i don’t like the way it’s pointing
but forward i cannot see, and hell is behind me
move
go
another instance of being built different, used to be so pissed at indifference
dying to be seen, death echoed in the cracks between
i owe it a lot, foundational building block
now classic rock, hoes unfazed, not the least bit shocked
and thank god for that, no going back, wasn’t weird to begin with in fact
thinkpad attached, though i don’t need that, got a whole phone record to blast
only me, not three, build sculptures from digital debris
no prior project success to glean, just barely escaped captivity
this is no video essay, no real overarching point to make
love letter to a band that put me on my way, but now it’s my fucking life to shape
now it’s my fucking life to shape
i loved it so much , i hope their next album doesn’t suck
